Divine Romance

I guess a good way to start this off would be to explain the title of my blog.  Rejoicing in my Divine Romance.  I stole that idea from Phil Wickham and his song Divine Romance.  Which I first heard at my brother's wedding.  Kind of weird, I know.  But not really that weird, given that my brother's wedding was by far the most worshipful, meaning wedding I have ever been to.  Thanks Ben and Meg.  It was truly beautiful and a tiny taste of what Heaven will be like.

Anyway, since the wedding this summer, that has been one of my all time favorite worship songs and songs in general.  It's just so accurately describes the romance between God and man...my greatest Love and me.

The most amazing, incredible, overwhelming, truly awesome, deep love there is.  People have a hard time describing earthly love.  Try describing a heavenly, unconditional love!  It is impossible.  People say that you know what love is when you experience it.  I think the same is true with Christ.  You will never understand the depths and miracle of His love until you really experience it.  And even the little bit of a divine romance that we experience here on this earth is nothing compared to what it will be like in Heaven, when we will experience His love COMPLETELY!  Oh, how I long for that day!  What an incredible thought to know that one day I will delight in Christ and worship Him with everything I have, forever.  and He will pour His love out over me forever.  I cannot even begin to imagine how great that will be!  I can't wait.

So, I guess that last paragraph basically sums up what God has been teaching me for the past year.  Yes, there are a million other lessons and things He has told me.  But that, His love for me and all of His children, is the bottom line.  My love for God has grown so much.  In a weird way, I feel like His love has grown for me. Now, I'm not a big theological genius, but I have a feeling that has nothing to do with His love for me actually growing.  Rather, I'm more aware of it.  The last couple of months, I have been continually reminded of His love for me.  Through trials, through joy, through the big things and the small.  I have been open to receiving God's love and realizing it for what it is.

I remember walking back to my apartment really early one morning after I had just spent most of the night writing a paper.  As I walked over Rainbow Bridge, I looked over Wolf Creek.  It was rushing and swelling from the rain we had earlier.  It was about as vicious looking as a little creek could possibly look.  Yet, it was beautiful.  As I looked at, I felt God saying "That can't even begin to compare to My love for you.  A tsunami couldn't compare."  Later, I was listening to a sermon online that I hadn't been able to hear at church because I was teaching preschool church.  Jay Bennett talked about the tsunami wave of God's love washing over us.  It is remarkable to think that God's love for me and for you and for everyone is that huge.  It's like I'm standing on a beach and a tsunami wave is pelting me.  But it's even bigger than that.  What is bigger than that?  I don't know what earthly thing is, but His love is.  Wow.  just wow.  Every time I think about it, I'm just awestruck.  I am so undeserving of it, yet there it is, washing over me.  And so, I can't help but rejoice in this miraculous Divine Romance that I have.  Nothing else could possibly compare.

the first one.

I'm new at this whole blogging thing.  I didn't want to get one for a while.  I thought "Man, how egotistical is that?  To think that someone would want to read my random thoughts and ramblings?  I don't want to be that selfish."  But, it's not really always being egotistical.  In fact, as I've read many of my dear friends' blogs and the blogs of people I didn't even know very well, I realized that when it's about God it is exactly the opposite of that.

So, I've decided to do this for a few reasons.

1. I love writing.  I used to do it all the time.  I still keep a prayer journal.  For some reason, get my thoughts out on paper (or on a screen) is really helpful for me.

2. I like being open and honest.  I love having deep conversations with people.  This is kind of a way to get that deepness when I can't have a conversation with someone because it's 4 in the morning and no one wants to hear me talk for hours.

3. I love Jesus.  This is by far the most important aspect.  God has been teaching me so much the last couple years, especially the last twelve months.  It's crazy how much deeper my relationship with Him has become.  crazy and AWESOME.  I don't think for a second that the things that I have to say could possibly lead people closer to Christ.  In fact, my personal thoughts would often lead people farther away from Him.  But, when God is teaching me something, I've noticed that He usually has someone else He wants to teach it to, as well.  I guess this is a way to let that teaching spread even further (farther?  I never remember which one to use) than I could possibly imagine.

So, with that said.  I guess it's time to talk, eh?  I think I'll make it another post.  This can just be the "why I decided to join this ridiculous fad" post.

P.S.  I hate spellcheck.  and at times I love grammar and punctuation.  I even freak out over it.  But other times, I don't care.  When there's terrible grammar and the punctuation is horrendous, you know that you have entered into the crazy world you can call Katy's real thoughts.